Why Am I Here, What Is It All About

Hands of God and Adam

Hands of God and Adam

I couldn’t believe it when a young man told me that this question ‘why am I here?‘ was the most frequently asked question on Google search engine. My immediate thought was ‘how sad’, people not knowing why they are here. Then I recalled that for quite some time in my life that was true of me, in spite of being brought up in church.

I have always known that God existed, somehow that was never an issue for me. Today however a vast number of people don’t believe in a living God – they think it all happened by accident – ‘the big bang’ – if that is the case they are an accident themselves, and then, if that’s true there is no real reason for us being here. It follows then that if there isn’t a plan and a purpose for you being here, then it will not matter what you do? Or does it?

If God does not exist, why is there right and wrong? And more importantly why do you have to teach a young child the importance of doing right, and why does a young child know instinctively when it is doing wrong. This implies we can do as we wish.

If God doesn’t exist why are so many people searching for a meaningful relationship with Him? Why do some people have complete faith in God’s existence but others are convinced He doesn’t exist? Why are the scientists so adamant that God doesn’t exist, even when there is indisputable evidence to the contrary. When they speak of the Universe – they are unwittingly speaking of God. Uni means one, and universe means one verse, ‘In the beginning God’ from the first verse in the Bible.

Up until the 18th Century everyone believed in God, the laws of the western world were based on the Ten Commandments, along came Darwin with his theory of Evolution, and from then on it was downhill full speed!

People have said to me “I can’t see Him, I can’t touch Him, I can’t hear Him, therefore He can’t exist, it is all in your mind.” God is a Spirit, and that means He doesn’t have a physical presence, and also God told Moses “Thou canst not see My face, for there shall no man see Me and live.” Exodus 34 verse 20 KJV

So how do I know with absolute conviction that there Is a God, He is Almighty, He is Creator of all things, He is Sovereign, He knows all and does all things, and He has a plan and a purpose for everyone today.

The scientists have done everything possible to create life, but have failed miserably. Yes, they have managed to clone animals and maybe even people (I hope not, but its always a possibility), however they haven’t managed to create life. God has created life, and I just marvel at it all. Scientists haven’t created a single seed from whence life comes, they meddle with God’s work in order to produce hybrid seeds which can’t reproduce themselves and are sterile. This begs a question you should be asking yourself?

I don’t believe in the evolution theory in the form that the scientists believe in it, and I understand that there isn’t proof for the theory. Not a single fossil has been found showing a mutation from one species to another. But I certainly think that a kind of evolution does exist, because we are what we eat. If you want to see a you-tube video showing creation versus evolution than watch the video below


We are also affected by our environment and climate. The hotter the climate the darker the skin, and the dark skin protects us from harmful sun rays. You see it also in the animal kingdom, giraffes growing long necks so they can eat the top leaves of the acacia trees.

First of all when I think of our bodies, I can’t believe that they happened by accident, everything is so completely related and if something isn’t right, than the whole body suffers. The following video is Does God Exist, and it is all about how amazing the human eye is.

When I think of planet earth and where we are in the Universe, than I know it is no accident. The scientists try to make us believe in the ‘big bang,’and for all I know that might be true, that it did all start with a big bang. But who created the ‘big bang’. You see everything is so well designed, and with every design comes a plan, and before it comes a thought, and behind every thought there has to be a Thinker. The next you-tube video is simply how perfect a banana is, what a wonderful design it is, and how a simple banana can help you understand creation, it title is An Atheists Nightmare.

To sum up simply, ‘to not believe in God’ means I have no purpose for being here, and I have no worth, there is no afterlife, death is the end of everything.

However to believe that God does exist changes everything. In a happy family the Father is the head of the family, and when the children are obedient, generally speaking the household runs smoothly and harmoniously. That is how it should be with our relationship with God, who when we come to Him in a correct manner, He expects us to become obedient children. When we do this and follow His precepts, life will become peaceful and blessed. It is when we do our own thing, demand our own way, that we can expect life to become extremely difficult, if not impossible, for us.

It is all a choice. God gives us free will, He also gives us incredible help to know Him, and help us change. All we need to do is to choose to obey, serve and make a full commitment to Him.

If you are wanting to know proof as to whether God exists, or we are just a product of the ‘big bang’ and evolution, then I urge you to read my first article on this website, called Does God Exist, is There Such a Place as Heaven.

If you are wanting to know about Jesus, and who He is I urge you to read my previous article ‘And Who Do You Say I am?

If you are wanting to know if I know that God exists, than I urge you to read my article How Do I know that God Exists.

If you ware wanting to know how God has helped me in various times of difficulty than i have written several articles, one being ‘In My Time of Trouble‘,

The next article is Another Touch of The Lord Upon My Life, and the latest testimony is ‘A Rhema Word from God.  This testimony is amazing because God actually wrote a Bible Verse on my iPhone, and I was able to photograph it.  Read it and see for yourself.  I can assure you the Apple doesn’t program Bible verses on the iPhone where the day and date goes, but God wanted to give me a Word that I will never forget, nor in the dark times can the enemy of my soul say to me ‘Did God really say that’, and bring doubt into play.  This time I caught the Word God gave me and photographed it.  Nothing can describe the joy I felt when I knew God had touched my life yet again.

Hopefully if you read some of these articles they will help you have a clearer picture of who you are, and most importantly who God is, and Jesus, and hopefully you can make up your mind as to which way you want to go, hopefully you will be able to make The Right choice.

Who Do You Say I am?

Jesus Teaching

Jesus Teaching

This question Jesus asked His disciples following Him, and this question is still being asked and pondered over 2000 years later.  And they say, Some say that thou art John the Baptist, some Elias, and others Jeremias, or one of the prophets.  Jesus insisted “He saith unto them, But whom say ye that I am? And Simon Peter answered ” Thou art the Christ, the Son of the Living God”. (Matthew 16:16) Jesus had been with His disciples for over 3 years, and during that time they had seen Him perform many miracles, turning wine into water. walking on water, speaking Peace to the storm and were amazed that even the wind and the waves obeyed Him.  He also healed the sick, opened the eyes of the blind, made the deaf to hear, the dumb to speak and the lame to walk.  He healed 10 lepers of their leprosy, and the one who came back and said ‘thank you’, He made him every whit whole.  He also raised the dead three times, but Lazarus had been dead for 4 days and was already in his tomb, and Jesus had the stone rolled away and called Lazarus to come out.  By this time Lazarus’ body would be corrupting, but Jesus called him to come out and then ordered the grave clothes to be removed.  Lazarus went on living for many years  and eventually sailed to France where it is documented that he became the first Bishop of France. Yet only Peter answered correctly ‘Thou are the Christ, the Son of the Living God”. Today the controversy over Jesus still reigns.  Many people applaud Jesus as a good man, a great moral teacher, but reject His claim to be God. However CS Lewis, a great scholar and author said simply “A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher.” He then reasoned, that for an ordinary man to claim to be God would mean he was  deluded or mad, or if sane he would be a liar and a deceiver.  There is only one other alternative – Jesus was not an ordinary man and His claim to be God is true.  Lewis challenges us:  “You must make your choice.  Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse.”  (Mere Christianity, P 52) One of the biggest controversies is ‘Did Jesus really rise from the dead?’ For most people that is the greatest stumbling block and many people try to account for the empty tomb by saying that the disciples came and stole the body away so that they could claim that Jesus rose from the dead.  However if you look at the evidence of the disciples, that is the most compelling of evidence, prior to Jesus’ crucifixion they all, except for John, ran away and Peter also denied that he even knew Jesus.  However after Jesus’ resurrection from the dead, the disciples no longer were the fearful men that they had been. These men were transformed and were ready to die rather than deny what they had seen and heard. If these men were proclaiming a lie, why did they willingly sacrifice their lives for something they knew to be a lie.  Are martyrs and liars made of the same stuff?  Would you be willing to die for a lie?

Jesus' Ascension

Jesus’ Ascension

It is also documented that 500 people were witness to His resurrection and were present at His ascension to Heaven. I read the following words but sadly do not know where – I made a copy of the words to help me reveal Jesus Christ to others.  It was called ONE SOLITARY LIFE – I wish i knew who the Author was so i could give him the recognition he deserves. It read:- He was born in an obscure village, the child of a peasant women.  He grew up in another obscure village where He worked in a carpenter’s shop until He was thirty.  Then for three years He was an itinerant preacher.  He never had a family or owned a home.  He never set foot inside a big city.  He never travelled two hundred miles from the place where He was born.  He never wrote a book or held an office.  He did none of the things that usually accompany greatness.

Jesus' Crucifixion

Jesus’ Crucifixion

While He was still a young man, the tide of popular opinion turned against Him.  His friends deserted Him.  He was turned over to His enemies and went through the mockery of a trial.  He was nailed to a cross between two thieves.  While He was dying, His executioners gambled for the only thing He had of value, His coat.  When He was dead, He was taken down and laid in a borrowed grave.  Nineteen centuries have come and gone, yet today He is still the central figure for much of the human race. All the armies that ever marched, all the navies that ever sailed,  all the parliaments that ever sat and all the kings that ever reigned put together have not affected the life upon this earth as powerfully as this ‘one solitary life’. Socrates and Aristotle each taught for 40 years, Plato for 50, but Jesus for only three.  Yet His influence far surpasses the combined 130 years of teaching by these men who are acknowledged as the greatest philosophers of all antiquity.  He painted no pictures, yet the finest paintings of Raphael, Michelangelo and Leonardo Da Vinci received their illumination from Him.  He wrote no poetry, yet Dante, Milton and others of the greatest poets were inspired by Him. He composed no music, yet Haydn, Handel, Beethoven and Bach reached their highest perfections in hymns, symphonies, and oratorios composed in His honour. Every sphere of human greatness has been enriched by the humble Carpenter of Nazareth.  His unique contribution to the race of men is the salvation of the soul. Philosophy could not accomplish that.  Nor art, nor literature, nor music.  Only He can heal the broken-hearted, strengthen the weak and give life to those who are spiritually dead. We celebrate two great festivals in the Christian Calendar, Christmas and Easter, but sadly these days people are only interested in the great partying and giving of gifts that go with the celebration and the true meaning of Christmas is fast disappearing with all the commercial razzmatazz that goes with it.  Christmas celebrates the wonderful occasion of Jesus’ birth.  Easter, His death, when He willingly laid down His life so that you and I may be forgiven our sins and have Eternal Life – that is if we are willing to lay our life down, give our heart to Him, and follow Him carrying our cross. So who is this Man Jesus Christ.  What does the Bible say about Him? ‘In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God.  The same was in the beginning with God.  All things were made by him: and without Him was not anything made that was made.  In Him was life: and the life was the light of men. (John 1:1-4) ‘ . . .  but as many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons of God, even to them who believe on His name’ (John 1:12) ‘ . . . And the Word was made flesh and dwelt among us (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.  (John 1:14) ‘ . . . But these (words) are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life through His Name” (John 20:31) ‘. . . I am the Way the Truth and The Life: no man cometh to the Father, but by Me. (John 14:6) So how can a man be the Son of God and the Son of Man.  We are born of the Adamic nature, but Jesus was born of the Virgin Mary, who was ‘covered by the Holy Ghost’.  The babe within her was Holy.  Our Adamic nature separates us from God, because Adam sinned in the Garden of Eden when he was disobedient and ate of the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.  Mankind lost that closeness with God that Adam had, when he walked with God in the Garden.  Sadly after that when he was thrown out of the Garden, he no longer operated in the Spiritual level, but only on the physical and soulish level.  Jesus came to be the bridge between God and man – to be the Perfect Lamb upon the Cross, so that when we confess our sins God will wash us clean with the Precious blood of Jesus.  There is no remission of sin without the shedding of blood, and only Jesus’ blood can be used.  He was made sin who knew no sin that we may become the Righteousness of God in Him.  He changes us from the inside out, when we accept Him, and beiieve on His Name and His resurrection from the dead, and ask Him to come and live in us, and be willing to be obedient and walk His way. When I was a girl because of family circumstances I went to boarding school, and part of the education I received was church attendance, school assemblies, and being confirmed as an Anglican Church member so I could take part in communion.  However none of it really made sense to me.  Yes I knew how to behave, and soon learnt that bad behaviour brought its own problems.  Boarding school life gave me a certain foundation of discipline, but even that wasn’t enough.  My first marriage ended in disaster, and left me to raise two children on my own.  My second marriage also was difficult, inasmuch that I left my country of origin and emigrated to England with my two children and in doing left behind my network of support.  I gave birth to a third child who found it very difficult because his dad, whom he adored worked, abroad as a contractor.  Eventually my husband gave up work as a contractor and we had to adjust to life together.  My older children by this time had left home and the youngest was going through his dreaded teen years.  Life became very difficult and to be honest I became very depressed.  I was given a little book called ‘God Calling by Two Listeners,’ and this little book revealed Jesus in a most extraordinary way.  He virtually stepped out of the pages, and I wanted to have what the ‘Two Listeners’ had, a relationship with Jesus so that they could hear Him and know Him in an amazing way and listen to what He says. One day I just knew that I must ask Jesus to come into my heart, and be Lord of my iife.  I asked Him to forgive my sins and help me to change and live life as He wants me to live.  And all I can say, is simply, He did just that.  Slowly I have changed, and the problems I had were sorted out little by little, so imperceptibly that I couldn’t say exactly what, why and when they had changed, but one day I knew that my life was on track and that Jesus was with me every step of the way.  He has made an incredible difference to me, and I often say I don’t know if I could have survived without Him being with me every step of the way.  Can I hear Him like these ladies heard Him, and the answer is no, not audibly anyhow, but nonetheless He makes the difference, and because I read the Bible, I get the answers I need.  I have learnt that the angels only know the Word of God, and obey the Word of God, so when you pray the Word of God you will get the help you need. I extend this challenge to you today, where ever you are in your life, whatever state of mind or physical body asking Jesus to reveal Himself to you, can only enhance and increase to an abundant overflow your life on this earth.  Why not pray the simple prayer :- Jesus if You are who this lady has said, reveal yourself to me today.  Amen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmQqjat8ptE&feature=share&list=PL423D73487720978C I found this Billy Graham YouTube video about the cross of Jesus and what it really means and just felt to share it with you.  There are two testimonies of how Jesus changed two lives in a most amazing way.  It is really worth watching right to the end. I just had to include the following You Tube video of a very special song, it is called hallelujah. It was written by Leonard Cohen who used a special song sung by jews celebrating their Sabbath day – a sabbath day is a day of rest – and Jesus gives us rest from our labours trying to be good enough for Heaven.  Leonard Cohen’s words weren’t spiritual and I always felt the music warranted very special words.  Well they have been rewritten and are based on Jesus’ on the cross, and His resurrection and of course the Hallelujah takes on a new meaning when you know Jesus rose again from the dead – and is ALIVE!

Another Touch of the Lord Upon My Life

If this is the first time you have come to this blog post, asking the question ‘why am I here?’ or indeed ‘does God exist?’ than please scroll down to the very first blog where I have attempted to answer those two questions.  Don’t take these blog posts  out of context as you will miss what is really being said.

This blog post is about another touch of the Lord upon my life, but this time I can prove it as the evidence is tangible but equally extraordinary as the previous experiences I have written about.  This time it is simply about a bible.  In 1989 my daughter was very concerned that I wasn’t really reading the Bible, I didn’t have a decent Bible to read, and didn’t have the money to purchase one.  My sister had given me a beautiful book called ‘God Calling’ by the Two Listeners and if you want to, you can read this little book on line by clicking  on the link ‘God Calling‘ and maybe this book will mean as much to you as it did to me, at a time in my life when i was totally miserable to the point of wanting to end it all.  But the messages in this book cheered me up, and it seemed to me that Jesus became so real, and it gave me the desire to have a relationship with Jesus, just as these ladies did.

But I wasn’t reading the Bible, and my daughter didn’t really approve of me only reading this book, she maintained it is only by reading The Word, and by the Baptism of the Holy Spirit that I can change and when I change all the circumstances making me miserable will change as well.  Of course before any of this happened I had to ask Jesus to come into my life, and I needed to make a full commitment to Him to follow Him no matter where He leads me.

By the way my daughter went to Trinity College of Music when she was 19 years of age, and promptly became a Christian, and has totally given her life to Father and Jesus.  She prayed me in, and I will always be extremely grateful to her for doing so.  Her son follows in her, and her husband’s footsteps, and has just completed three years at Bible College, in preparation for a life following the Lord.

My daughter went to Scotland to Faith Acres in Peterhead, where there was a convention and this was life changing for her and for me as well.  For her, she met a young man and the Lord told her this was her future husband, and they married in 1990.  There was also at this convention some very special Bibles, King James Version, but using Kwikscan as the print. You could not purchase these Bibles in the United Kingdom, only in the USA. She bought one for me, it was a paperback edition, but I proceeded to use it, and 22 years I am still using it.  However over the years it has become very battered, and the binding has totally gone, but I have scribbled in it many jottings that were very important to me, and I couldn’t let it go. My daughter calls it ‘my treasure in heaven’.

This Bible, because of the Kwikscan, which simply means that a shortened version of the Bible stories is in emboldened print, within the whole Bible, so if you want, you need only read the emboldened print and thus read the Bible in a third of the time it normally takes.  I never really worried about that, to me every word is important, but I found the Kwikscan print just easier to read and words stand out, and thus was able to find verses that were important to me, quickly.  I loved the paper as well, as it was easier to turn the pages over and find the relevant chapter quickly. There was also room to make notes, as, and when you wanted to do so, and because this Bible doesn’t have any notes or references,  in a way I was making  my own.

This year I realised that I must try and find a replacement for my Bible as it was getting to the point where I would lose it altogether.  I knew that you couldn’t purchase a Kwikscan Bible in this country, you never ever have been able to do so, it was only that the visiting speaker to the Convention in Peterhead in 1989 brought these Bibles out from the USA, that my daughter was able to purchase my Bible for me.

I looked and looked, but just didn’t want any other Bible, only a Kwikscan Bible would do.  In the other Bibles the print was either too small, or the paper too thin, or I couldn’t get the King James Version.  Whatever, I just couldn’t find one to suit me.  So I took it to the Lord in prayer, and asked Him to help me get a replacement as my old Bible was totally worn out.

In March this year I was asked to do a Bible Study lesson, which I found quite daunting at the time, but nonetheless agreed to do it.  I decided that I would not only type my notes that I had made on the passage we were studying, but I would included the actual Bible verses with them so I didn’t need to refer to my Old Bible at all.  When we sat down, I laughed and spoke to a friend, who because of family commitments can only come now and again, and so hadn’t known what a state my old bible was getting into.

I told her that I wasn’t using my Bible because of how battered it was.  She looked at my old Bible, then said these wonderful words  “Sally I have a good second hand version of your Bible in my book shelf at home, would you like it?”  I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.  You see I had been online to Amazon.com and searched for this Bible, only to find that a secondhand version would cost me anything from $40 to $60 and if  I wanted a leather bound edition that would cost me $120.  Incidentally this Kwikscan Bible is now out of print, so I could only purchase a secondhand one.

Anne told me that a friend called Peggy had given her the Bible and asked her to find a good home for it.  Sadly Peggy has more or less lost her eyesight, and is unable to read the Bible now, she listens to it by Audio instead.  So Ann took charge of the Bible, and even though she and her husband very nearly moved house, and very nearly gave it a secondhand book store, she didn’t.  I felt God had put my name on that Bible, and kept it safe for just such a time as I would cry out to Him for a replacement.  And it shall come to pass, that before they call Ii will answer, and while they are yet speaking I will hear. Isaiah 65 v 24.

The wonderful part of this story is the replacement Bible was a leather bound Bible and in extremely good condition.  It has been beautifully bound and I don’t expect the binding to give way like my paperback version has done.  Yes I am over the moon, because you see I couldn’t purchase this Bible in this country, so it is only by the Grace of God that I have another one.

My Old Bible and the New Bible

My Old Bible and the New Bible give to me.

The Bible is very important in my life.  I am deeply grateful to the Lord for bringing me to a church that is totally  Bible based, and believes that in order to walk ‘the way’ one needs to get to grips with what is said in the Bible.  I am deeply grateful that the Church runs Life Groups, or Bible Study groups where we get together one evening a week and study the Word together.  It has helped me more than I can every say or think.  The group becomes your spiritual family where you pray the prayers that are needed to be prayed and where you get the support for whatever crisis you are going through at the time.  It is said that one person praying sends 1000 angels to flight, but two people praying sends 10,000 angels to flight, so goodness knows how many angels are sent when a group of people pray.  All I know is that I personally have had enormous answers to prayer, and it’s because of various groups of people who pray in unity for one another.

Same page in the old Bible as in the new showing the Kwikscan print.

There is such a strength in being in a group of like minded people, and when you pray together you form a bond that you just can’t describe.

The Bible isn’t just an irrelevant book of olden times, filled with peculiar stories of people who are irrelevant to us these days. No, the Bible is as relevant to us these days as it has ever been.  Especially when you know that the Old Testament is a shadow of the coming of Jesus, and the New Testament is the Actual Relevation of Jesus.  It is all about Jesus. When you realise that Jesus is God’s great gift to mankind, and when you realise the difference that Jesus can make to the vilest of people, it is so hard to understand why people just don’t want to be bothered.

Same page in the new Bible as the old Bible showing the Kwikscan print.

Nothing made sense in my life, I just didn’t know where i was going, I just didn’t know how I was going to cope with all the vicissitudes life was throwing at me.  I was a very miserable lady, and my doctor advised me to get a divorce.  Instead I was given that book, ‘God Calling’, and Jesus stepped out of the pages, and six months later my daughter came home, and we attended church together. I, for the simple reason, wanted to see what she was getting into.  I had heard of all these ‘cult’ theories, and had to make sure.  I walked in to this Church and the Love of God was so tangible in that place I am still there 26 years later.

God has taken all the crooked places in my life and changed everyone of them, and I can’t stop saying ‘thank you’. I can’t stop rejoicing in His wonderful Name, and I can’t sometimes believe how different life has become for me.  It was so awful, and now it is exciting, and a wonderful adventure. I never know what is going to happen next.  But this I do know that the God I serve has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me, and that is good enough for me. I know that I can rely on Him totally.  No, not all my prayers are answered immediately, and some of them probably won’t be answered at all.

God answers by shutting doors as well as opening doors.  He knows the end from the beginning and I have learned through the ages to pray ‘Thy kingdom come and Thy will be done’ in whatever situation I am praying about, because He knows the end from the beginning and we don’t. I have also learnt that there is a right time for ones prayers to be answered.  I prayed for 19 years for my husband to come to salvation, and am glad to say that in 2005 he did just that.  It took a long time, but I didn’t give up and think ‘this is never going to happen’, I just kept on praying.  I have to say I am still praying for my sons, but the Lord gave me a promise ‘I can dry my eyes and stop my weeping, my children will surely return from the land of the enemy’. Jer 31 v 16. I declare this promise over my sons daily and look forward to the fulfilment of it. It will happen when it is exactly the right time for them to look up and accept Jesus as their Saviour and be prepared to give their lives to Him.

The Bible is an incredible book, it is a love manual from God, Jesus is ‘the Word’ made flesh. Jesus’ title when He returns will be King of Kings and Lord of Lords, and the title ‘The Word’ will be on His thigh. When you search the Bible carefully there are over 48 prophecies on Jesus’ first coming that were completely fulfilled when He did come as the Suffering Messiah.  The promises for Jesus’ Second Coming are so wonderful and so stupendous and because the first set were completely fulfilled I feel that the second set will be fulfilled in like manner.

A very clear description of Jesus’ crucifixion is given in Psalm 22, even using the same words Jesus utters on the cross, and the amazing thing is this was written about a 1000 years before Jesus was born, and crucifixion was not heard of in David’s  days. It was a particular form of execution used by the Romans, and they conquered Israel about 100 years before Jesus’ birth, and yet David gives such a clear description of Jesus on the cross.

I must confess I did find the Bible difficult to read at first, but with the help of Bible Study notes I persevered, and it wasn’t long before I realized the immense Power of the Book.  How else can you hear from God? Only by spending time with Him, and reading His Word, the Bible, can one begin to have a relationship with Him.  Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.  Ps 119 v 105.  The Word is powerful and living and is a two edged sword that divides between spirit and soul, bone and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.  Heb 4 v 12.

This  completes the blog post, I do hope I managed to convey to you the preciousness of reading the Bible and seeking the Lord, asking Him to reveal Himself to you, and when you do take the greatest step in your life, after asking Jesus to come into your heart, and asking Him to forgive your sins, committing your life to fully following Him, then determine to find time to the important task of reading the Bible.


In My Time Of Trouble

For all those who have come to this site after asking the question ‘why am I here,’ please will you scroll down to the first blog post where I have attempted to answer that very profound question. Please don’t take these blog posts out of context as you won’t really understand what I am attempting to reveal to you.

This blog post I am continuing with the story of ‘how I know God exists’, this is the second part. Please bare with me, I know it is very annoying reading about someone else’s experiences, but so many of you have commented on the blog post ‘Does God Exist,’ that I know you are seeking, and some of you have asked me outright ‘am I 100% sure of what I have written.’ What I am writing about in this blog post started in 2010, it was a series of incidents where God Himself warned me of every one of those incidents before they actually happened, so when He took me through them, I maintained my inner peace and the result is He has built up my faith and knowledge in Him.

How do you come to trust in the Lord – mainly by what you actually experience. The one thing people can never take away is somebodies testimony of what the Lord has done in their life. This series of events was for my husbands sake, as well as mine. Cliff became a believer in 2005, and I think because of the seriousness of the state of the world, God in His infinite Wisdom, allowed both of us to be shaken in order that our faith became stronger.

It started in February, I have a promise box, I bought it in a Christian Shop and thought it would help me get to know the ‘promises of God’. After all the Jews had to go to their Promised Land, and conquer it, and as Christians we have to travel along the narrow way to life, to the Land of the Promises of God.

I often think of the lovely words that Pam Singer sings:- Faithful is He, He who has promised, Faithful is He, He will perform, Faithful is he, here is the Essence, Perfume of His Presence, Faithful is He.

During the month of February in 2010 I suddenly started picking out the same promise – it was in two parts, which was the clincher, and the two parts were in different places in the box . For a few weeks daily, I picked out this promise:-(1) ‘For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: (2) in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. This promise comes out of Psalm 27 verse 5. This is a wonderful Psalm and I know it well, and a few years previously I had set a few of the verses to music, especially that verse. First part one of the promise and then part two, until it suddenly dawned on me that God was warning me of things to come. I actually said that to my husband, that we were going to go through a difficult time, but we weren’t to worry because we would be hidden in His tabernacle, and we would be safe.

The trouble came very suddenly, first of all we had a large amount of money in a particular high interest account, that went under investigation for fraud, it looked at that time as if we had lost our savings. This was of concern to us, as we only have the state pension and our savings. We don’t even get the full state pension as my husband served 15 years in the navy, and those years there was no contribution to his pension – and no redress from the navy over it. Because Cliff worked abroad for most of our married life, he wasn’t able to contribute to a pension fund so instead we saved every penny we could as we know that the state pension doesn’t really cover you when you need it the most i.e in your eighties, or indeed if anything happens to Cliff my pension will barely pay for food and utilities, and these days probably won’t even cover that.

On the 16th March 2010, my son Craig went into hospital for a day procedure. He had had a gall bladder operation a few years previously, for gall stones, but one had been left behind. So they intended to put a camera down his throat, through the stomach, into his duodenum, and with a hot wire they were going to make the entrance where the bile duct enters into the duodenum larger, so the stone could pass through. What happened was when they came to make the cut, Craig’s body went into a rigour, and the hot wire penetrated the bile duct and the duodenum, so they didn’t continue but stopped the procedure. They were going to send Craig home but fortunately the ward sister insisted he spent the night in hospital, she didn’t like the look of him.

The next morning he went into terrible pain, and was diagnosed as having pancreatitis. This was of great concern to me as Craig’s biological father had died of pancreatitis when he was 41 years. So he was kept in hospital, but they didn’t check on the places where the hot wire had punctured the duodenum. He became very ill, and when I say he was on morphine intravenously for 8 weeks, you will know he was very ill indeed. He lost so much weight he looked like a skeleton, and they had to pump pre-digested food into him for weeks. The puncture caused him to have a peritoneal abscess, and eventually they managed to get a drain in and drain it, it took nearly a month to drain. Craig hasn’t really recovered fully even now, but twice he thought he was dying, and I do understand it was a pretty near thing. He lives quite a way from us, and I had to go to stay in his house so I could visit him in hospital, sit by his bed and just be there for him. You can imagine it was a very worrying time for us, but I had my promise and I was standing on it.

In March prior to all this happening, we had purchased a ‘good secondhand car’ a Honda Jazz, which my husband took an instant dislike to it, mainly because it was sold to us as one person owner, but when we received the log book we were told it was a ‘car for hire’. After I returned home on the 26th April we were trying to find an address, we were on a busy road and realized that we had overshot the place where we thought the address was. My husband was going to turn left, and signalled left, but looked at the queue of cars trying to get out of that junction, looked and decided he would do a U turn in the road, (It was a staggered junction with a dedicated area for turning right) because there was nothing coming the other way. He checked his rear mirror but not his wing mirror, and promptly sideswiped a huge water carrier, same size as a petrol carrier who was overtaking us on that dedicated turn right piece of road. All I was aware of were the huge wheels. But I had picked out my promise again that day, and knew we would be all right.

The car was completely written off, the drivers side was totally destroyed, but Cliff and I didn’t have as much as a cut or bruise. In our time of trouble – I just marvelled at it all. Yes we had all the nausea of insurance claims, and whilst we were waiting of decisions we were given a Mercedes Benz car to drive, which we found quite stressful as the car was much wider than we were used to, and on the very narrow English Country lanes, that was a hazard in itself, especially as we were liable for any damage to the car.

Eventually we were given the go-ahead to purchase a replacement car, which we did. We didn’t get anything like we had paid for the Honda so this time we went for a Hyundai Getz, but again this was a 3 year old car with only 10,000 miles on the milometer, and the back seats hadn’t even been sat on, so all in all we thought it was a fair replacement. I like driving it, and my husband finds it much nicer to drive than the Honda.

You won’t believe this but on the 8th June we had to attend a dear friends funeral, he was a very special man of God, a much beloved man, who had the most beautiful funeral in Norwich Cathedral, if you can call any funeral beautiful, but it was more a celebration of Murray’s life than a funeral. We were returning home after it, coming up to the T-Junction just 50 yards from our home. We noticed that a car coming down the hill was going to turn right in front of us, as if he hadn’t seen us. Cliff stopped, to let him sort himself out. He stopped, Cliff proceeded across the junction, and he suddenly started up again and hit us. I will never know why, because we had actually started to pass him when he hit us, and I would have thought that he had the time to apply the brakes. Oh well! In our time of trouble, yes I had picked that promise out for that day.

This time the car, that we had only had for three weeks, was damaged, but able to be repaired. The damage was to the passenger side door, door frame, and rear wheel. Again we suffered no bruising, whip lash or cuts, Just the shock of it all. But in our time of trouble we were kept safe from harm.

Cliff sort of lost his confidence this time, as the driver accused him of signalling to go left, but I know that wasn’t true. He had no reason to switch the indicators on, he was just going over the speed bumps, and then home. But maybe the sun was very low, and maybe going over the speed bumps made it look as if he had his indicators on. I don’t know, but whatever happened, he did stop, the driver of the other car stopped, and we both went together, and crash!

During this difficult time we also purchased a ride on lawn mower, as our garden is very large and our old tractor mower needed replacing. I didn’t like the new mower, I usually do the mowing, as it is something I am able to do to help Cliff in the garden. The new mower had two things that were seriously wrong with it as far as I am concerned, but neither were things I could complain of to the company, or so I thought. I wasn’t able to change the cutter level without stopping the mower and using both hands, my right hand has joint pain around the thumb and I am struggling with it. Because of that we didn’t complain to the manufacturers. Part of the garden has a lot of Poplar tree roots, which the mower has to go over, and I must raise the cutter deck to do so. It wasn’t long before I damaged the outer rim of the cutter deck, Cliff managed to straighten it out, but it made me almost afraid to drive the mower. After Christmas even this was sorted out, when I was trying to sweep up leaves and the mower stopped, there was an electrical problem and we had to call the people out from whom we had purchased it. In the effort of getting the mower onto the truck there was a problem, all this resulted in our getting the mower back after a month, and all the problems were completely sorted out. It is a pleasure to use it today.

In October, our youngest son told us that he had been burgled, and had had his new plasma TV, his new laptop computer, his play station and his daughter’s telephone stolen. Sadly he wasn’t insured. Two days later he was working on his motor car, when the bonnet slammed down on his hand crushing his index finger on his left hand. He drove himself to hospital, 10 miles away, and then had to go through amputation, by local anaesthetic to the index finger down to the joint nearest the knuckle. This incident really upset us and disturbed us, and after another attempted burglary, Daryl has left his house, and rented it out, and is without digs at this moment of writing. He is a contractor, and when he works he gets lodgings near his place of work, wherever that may be. At the moment he is between jobs, and has come home. But ‘in our time of trouble’ is still operating even in this situation.

My daughter, who had been a late University student, and got her degree, had attempted to do her masters degree but became very ill with diabetes and had to give up that degree. Well, suddenly she became liable for two lots of student loans at the same time, her husband didn’t have work at that time, so we had to step in and help, in spite of our finances still in a precarious position. Mind you all summer we had been attending meetings regarding the fraud and our savings, because we weren’t the only people caught in this situation. We had to sign a document to say we would forfeit 10% of the whole, and we felt that the team who were fighting on our behalf did deserve this as their fee.

It was nearly the end of the year, the winter had come in very quickly and Britain was soon experiencing freezing weather. I had a very vivid dream where I dreamt the Victoria Falls was coming into our house. I couldn’t understand the dream, but thought maybe I was going to get tough news from my family in Zimbabwe. But on Wednesday 22nd December, Cliff realized that the water flowing into the makeup tank for the central heating was running continuously, meaning that the water was going somewhere. Where? He looked out the window and no water was coming out of the overflow. We ran into the bedroom and from out of the light fitting we had the waterfall, also where the heating pipes went into the ceiling, the water was pouring out of that. Cliff stopped the water, and we attempted to clean and dry up everything, which we did do. We reported the matter to the insurance people, but because it was so close to Christmas we thought we would leave it and deal with it afterwards, hopefully in spring. We did get the gas engineer out and he separated things so we could put the water on again but we wouldn’t have heating in our bedroom.

On the 5th January I looked at the wall of our bedroom and mould had suddenly sprung up over night. So we knew we couldn’t wait any longer, we had to get help. The insurance was at first very difficult, and told us we didn’t have access insurance – that means because our central heating is insured by British Gas, they weren’t responsible for cutting the hole in the ceiling or putting right the damage.

However another man came, also sent by the Insurers, and he had an instrument that measured the damp in the room, and he told them this was a major job. The ceiling had to come down, the plaster off three walls had to be removed, the carpet was completely damaged, and we had to vacate the bedroom. It was the middle of January when they started and our bedroom wasn’t completed until the end of June. To complicate the problem, the ceiling was artexed and the artex contained asbestos, which meant that specialists only could remove the ceiling.

We had to replace all the furniture as well, because when the furniture was moved back into the bedroom all the veneer started to peal off. The insurers were extremely generous, and I must say I am delighted with the result, but we lived in a dreadful muddle until everything was put right and we were able to go back into our bedroom again. It wasn’t burst central heating pipes because of the weather, this had been going on for sometime. There was a joint in the pipes and the solder didn’t hold, so in a way we were very blessed that this was revealed and we were able to put things right.

The Lord reminded me of how I had prayed about the state of that room, it was a very dark room, with dark good quality stand alone furniture, very heavy, very dark. I could no longer pull the furniture out to thoroughly clean the place, and this bothered me. I had asked Cliff to replace the furniture with built in furniture but he had always refused, and I must say that we would have lost everything if he had done as I wanted. Now was my time to get an attractive stone coloured carpet, and light beech wood furniture, and the room is so much nicer I can’t help but rejoice and thank the Lord for His goodness. Still I do know now we must be careful in what we pray. The Lord has His own way of answering prayer. But in spite of all the drama I am very thankful that the room has been made over.

Just before Christmas Cliff started getting serious angina problems. We knew that he needed another stent, he had had one done in 2004, but they should have done two. However during the extreme cold he was getting angina badly and was fortunate to get an appointment with his heart specialist. He had a double stent put in on March 6, 2011, and you can’t believe the difference it made to him. Within a fortnight he was back in his beloved garden, getting it ready for all the fruit and vegetables he loves to grow. He was at risk for a major heart attack all through that time, but again the Lord was faithful.

In March 2011, we finally attended a meeting to be told that the Building Society who had advised us to put our savings into the scheme, was going to refund us. They hadn’t done their homework, as questions were being raised as far back as 2005 about the validity of the scheme we were in. At the end of May we were paid out nearly the amount we had paid in, and less the amount we paid the financial lawyers who had been fighting for us, we received about 87% of the whole so that was a great help.

During all of these times of trouble, I always received the promise either a couple of times before the trouble appeared, if it was a really difficult time, or just the once if it was what I call a ‘nuisance’ trouble. The Lord has been completely faithful to help us through these troubles. Even now I sometimes pick that promise out, and when the trouble comes I just know the Lord is going to help sort it out. By the way both parts of the promise are in different areas of the promise box, which makes it even more impossible to be a mere coincidence. I don’t believe in coincidences any way.  And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8 v 28

How Do I Know that God Exists?

Adam and Eve in the Garden by Michelangelo

Adam and Eve in the Garden by Michelangelo

If this is the first time you have visited this website asking the question ‘why am I here?’ you need to click on the link Why am I Here and then go to the first blog  Does God Exist: Is There Such a Place as Heaven  and read the blog posts in order. Don’t take them out of sequence as that can bring about misunderstanding. I am taking you through the many steps to a full understanding of Who you are, and Why you are here, and What it is all about.

This blog post I am breaking the story of Abraham, because I have had so many comments attached to the blog post ‘Does God Exist – and is There a Heaven’. So many of you have made comments over this blog post and asked me do I truly know that God exists, and how do i know that God exists. I am sorry this is a long blog post, and there is no you-tube video.

Simply the answer is that He has opened my eyes to His truth, and opened my ears so that on one occasion I actually heard His voice. How do I know it was God’s voice, and not my own thoughts, well He told me a truth about myself, that I didn’t know and wasn’t even considering. We have three voices in our head, the loud voice that accuses you and tells you, you are no good, is the enemy’s voice – we call him the accuser of the brethren, and that describes him, and helps you to discern his voice.

The other voice is your own thoughts, and this is a difficult one as it is sometimes hard to distinguish between your voice and the still small voice of the Holy Spirit within. When you come to a saving knowledge of Jesus our Saviour, and have made a full commitment to follow Him wherever he takes you, to do your best to follow Him and be obedient to His commands, He gives you His Holy Spirit to come and live within you and it is the Holy Spirit within that helps you to change. Christianity is not a religion, but a relationship, and it is the Holy Spirit within that makes it so different from religion, where you have to do the work to become good enough for heaven.

I was in my early forties when a very big change came into my life. I came from Cape Town at the age of 30 years, to marry my second husband Cliff, I had two children from a failed previous marriage. Cliff worked abroad for the first 13 years of my marriage, with a short break of 18 months when Cliff was made redundant. We had had a baby together, and he was 9 months when Cliff came home for the first time. Because of the nature of Cliff’s work there was no financial help for us, so the following 18 months were extremely difficult. But God was good (even though I wasn’t following Him at that time) I got a job with an Insurance firm, doing data control, something I was used to doing in Cape Town.

Cliff was re-employed 18 months later, and I was able to give up my job and go back to being a full-time Mum at home, but on my own as Cliff worked abroad. It wasn’t easy but when we saw each other it was very special, like a little honeymoon every few months for a week or two.

I had a serious health problem, I suffered from cluster migraines, they came daily for two month’s at a time cycle. The pain was acute and the doctors tried every medication that was out at the time, and in the end they told me not to come back and bother them, because they couldn’t help me, I would have to live with these dreadful headaches. The pain was acute, it was due to a blood vessel dilating on to an optic nerve. I was given medication called Cafergot Q, which was a mixture of caffeine and ergotamine, and this had a dreadful side affect on me, it narrowed my blood vessels in my head as well as my body. I knew there was something wrong because i was losing my ability to play the piano, I was a grade 8 pianist, which is the highest exam an amateur could achieve, but my ability to play the piano was diminishing and what was once a joy, just became very hard work.

When I turned 42 years of age we decided that Cliff would give up his overseas work because Daryl our youngest son was re-acting badly to not having his dad at home. I couldn’t really manage him, he has a very strong will, and was starting to not want to go to school. The old tummy-ache syndrome. Cliff came home, but Norwich is not a city that had much work for a petro-chemical-engineer. Cliff got the best job he could get in the circumstances, but it nearly killed him. He became a boiler man in a factory, and during summer he was to sweep the factory floor. Prior to this he was working in Kuwait as a start up maintenance engineer, in a petroleum-gas plant, one of the first in the Middle East. Later on he got work as a technician in the local hospital, where he was much happier.

There were several great tensions in the home as a result of Cliff’s return from abroad. First I was so used to running the home, and taking all the decisions needed for looking after three children, two dogs and an acre of garden, and my Mother, who after the death of my Dad had come to England to live near the family and I.

The other tension was Cliff needed to learn how to live in a family with three active children, two being teenagers. He also had the added difficulty of a salary that was instantly halved, and to make things worse he had to ‘learn how to sweep a factory floor.’ Added to that we were both out to work, and you know how much tension that can create, when two parents are out to work, and there are children and dogs to be taken care of.

The tension was so great in our home, I couldn’t get things right, what ever I did was wrong, and that is an awful place to be. But God was working things out for us both, even though it seemed that our marriage was heading for divorce. Matters came to a head when I went to the Doctor for depression, I was afraid that when depression came all over me that I would actually commit suicide.

My doctor told me that I was to either consider divorce as he didn’t want to listen to my tale of woe for the next 30 years, or else consider God and getting help from above. I thought about that and made a decision that I wouldn’t get a divorce until Daryl, at that time 11 years old, turned at least 21 years of age. I knew the damage that is done to children when a marriage breaks up, I had already experienced that, and couldn’t do it to my family again. I would just try on soldier on for the next ten years and do the best I could.

In my 44th year, I was given a book called ‘God Calling’ by the Two Listeners. I had never read anything like this. Jesus just stepped out of the pages for me. It seemed whenever I read this book that it would be something I needed to hear right at that moment in time, and it wasn’t long before I asked Jesus to come into my heart and change my life and help me to commit my life totally to Him. But I didn’t want to go back to the former church I used to attend.

At the same time my eldest daughter Bonnie had gone to music college in London, had met up with a girl called Rachel and she saw something in Rachel that she wanted. Rachel told her she was a Christian and Bonnie gave her life to the Lord there and then. She started praying for the family and it was her prayers that kept me going during my dark time and who knows, probably opened my eyes to Jesus.

Bonnie didn’t complete her studies at Trinity College of Music, she had contracted pleurisy quite badly and couldn’t play her french horn and was told she could no longer continue her studies as a result. She stayed on in London and got a job working for the Job Center, and thoroughly enjoyed her work. Then she felt God tell her, she must give it all up and come home and help me to become truly saved.

We started going to a Church in Norwich which Bonnie had been advised to attend, it was called Mount Zion, and I knew the moment I entered that this was a completely different church to any I had ever attended. Somehow I could sense the Presence of God in the House. There was such love there, and you never knew what was going to happen. Sometimes the meetings were so anointed it was hard to come back to earth after the meetings. Sometimes I thought I could smell the Lord’s fragrance, I was used to an incense burner in my previous church, and would look for someone using a burner, but there would be no-one there just the wonderful fragrance of incense. People would speak in tongues (their heavenly language) and others would give the interpretation. Once a lady sang in tongues and the interpreter sang the answer back, and that to me was absolute evidence that the messages were from God Himself. Often the messages were exactly what I needed to hear. My attitude started to change, slowly, very slowly but surely, and the change in me wrought about a change in the tension between Cliff and myself.

I was only a Christian about three weeks, when I felt the Lord say to me “why do I denigrate the blood of Christ’ and use the name of ‘Christ’ in vain? As a girl, who had attended boarding school, my spoken language was full of ‘bloody, damn, blast etc’. I knew that my language wasn’t really acceptable, but I hadn’t realized that using the word ‘bloody’ was denigrating the work Jesus did on the cross. I thought about it, and then realized no-one denigrates the name of Allah, or Buddha or any other religion, and that made me realize that the Christian faith was different to other religions. I stopped swearing and now I can’t bear it when I hear foul language used and Jesus’ Name taken in vain, and it is foul language, it isn’t clever and it just denigrates a person to use it.

We were taught that we were saved ‘by Grace’, and not by works. In other words, Jesus did a complete work on the cross, we can relax from the burden of trying to be good enough for heaven, because we can’t ever be that good. He says, ‘My yoke is easy and My burden is light’. We were taught to have a relationship with God through Jesus, and that our walk with Jesus would be much easier if we spent good time with Him, reading our Bible and talking to Him (called praying). In time I found that it wasn’t an effort to spend time with the Lord, that I really enjoyed our time together. I have fought many a battle in prayer, and had some amazing answers to prayer, too many to list in this blog post, but I will say this, for the big prayer requests I always asked other people to help me pray, I soon realized that there was something special about two or more praying in unison.

In 1988, during the summer holidays, the church held a convention, and a lady from USA (although she is originally from the UK) called Sister Laity Thomas was the main speaker at the convention. One evening she told us that God had told her He was going to heal all those suffering from Migraine. Yes, I was still a migraine sufferer, and it really affected my life. By this time I was playing the piano for a School of Dance, but really struggling to play properly, and couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. When Sister Laity Thomas gave the call, I couldn’t wait and rushed up to the front. I had never been in a healing service before and had no idea what to expect. I was still a new Christian, only really starting my Church life in 1986. Well, Sister Laity Thomas laid ‘hands upon my head’, I can’t really say I knew what happened next, but I was flat on my back on the floor, almost unable to move, and I knew when I got up on my feet that I was healed. I was completely convinced of that fact, even though at the time I didn’t have the evidence, in other words at the time of the healing I wasn’t suffering an attack that was miraculously healed.

Two months later, my son Craig was involved in a head-on car accident. He was traveling to Birmingham to see the motor show. It was 6.50am and he and his friend Stephen had just passed a place called Red Lodge, he was driving at about 65 miles per hour, and rounded a corner, and there was a car directly in his path. That car was overtaking at the time, and couldn’t get back to his side of the road in time. They hit head on. The driver of the other car was killed outright, and his wife, sitting on the back seat, died two months later.

Craig was trapped in the car, it had to be cut into three pieces to get him out. The car caught on fire, and Stephen, who was suffering from concussion, got out of the car and found someone with a fire extinguisher, and they nearly put the flames out, when the extinguisher became empty. The flames started up again, and then there was a ‘man with a bucket of water who was walking along the road’. Those words were Stephen’s words describing what happened. I have never seen anyone walking along that road, which is the main Norwich to London Road, and we travel it quite frequently. The water did completely put the fire out. I will always think that that man was in fact Craig’s guardian angel.

As I said he had to be cut out of the vehicle by the fire engine. Next there were two ambulances racing to the scene. One was from Addenbrookes, a large hospital in Cambridge, and one was from Bury St Edmunds, the nearest hospital to the scene of the crash. The ambulance from Bury got to Craig first, and there just happened to be the best surgeon in England for reconstructing knees. Craig’s left knee was very badly damaged, the tibia came right through the kneecap, and the kneecap was broken into pieces. If he hadn’t been wearing denim jeans he would have lost his leg. Craig suffered 24 fractures in the accident, but the Lord allowed me to see Craig, when for five minutes he was lucid after surgery, before he was put under morphine for another week.

We had another scare two days later, the doctors wanted to look at Craig’s knee under anaesthetic, to check and see if gangrene had started as the injury was so severe. He had been prepped, ready for the op, and we were sitting at his bed-side. We had had to give permission for the Doctors to remove the leg if necessary. It was two pm and there was no staff around, (staff changeover I believe), suddenly Craig said one sentence ‘I am off to the moon in my flying machine’, and at that moment the Ward Sister walked in, she listened, took a blood sample and stopped the operation. Craig didn’t have enough oxygen in his blood to withstand the anaesthetic and would have become a vegetable if the operation had gone ahead. The wonderful grace of God and the prayers of the entire Church.

Bury St Edmund is 50 miles away from Norwich, I was driving there daily to be with Craig, but still had to go on and play the piano for the School of Dance. Fortunately that term we were putting on a show at the Theatre Royal in Norwich, so I wasn’t doing that much playing, more helping the children learn their dances. I myself was performing, and to this day I’ll never know how I got through it all. However I was due to start my Migraines on Christmas Day, but I knew that I had been healed. However I was under great stress at the time, Craig was at Bury St Edmunds Hospital for two months and then was transferred to Norwich just before Christmas. That was a great relief for all concerned. I never got the expected migraine attack, although for two months I would get a little pain around the eye, and I would declare the Words from the Bible ‘By His stripes I am healed,’ Isaiah 53 v 5 and the pain would disappear. I have never had another migraine since that time. I was completely healed and only God could do that for me.

That was the first time I was healed. I had another healing six years later. Amazingly it was Sister Laity Thomas that laid hands on me again and prayed for the healing. This time it was for angina. I had suffered a heart attack when I was 53 years because I had found my mother dead on her flat floor. It was a dreadful shock, and exactly a month later I had a heart attack. This left me with angina, quite severe angina, and I found it curtailed my life and I also lost confidence in life itself. I was worried I would have another attack, and maybe die, Especially since I had lost a very good friend who had a heart attack and didn’t make it. As a Christian we don’t fear death any more, but I don’t want to die until I know that my boys, who are still in the land of the enemy, are safely on the road to lifeMy Goarden in Flood.

The Friday before my healing on the Sunday, I had gone down to the bottom of my garden. We have quite a decent size river at the bottom of the garden, and the river was in flood. We had just build a jetty and had floored it with twelve scaffolding planks, but they were not secured. I knew that if I didn’t get them off the jetty they would be washed away and then the jetty wouldn’t be of any use. So very early in the morning I donned my wellie boots and got onto the jetty. I pulled all twelve planks of the jetty and dragged them up the garden out of harms way. But it left me with a heart that literally ached, like sore leg muscles ache if you have run too far.

The following Sunday Sister Laity Thomas was back in our Church, and I asked her to lay hands on me and ask God to heal my angina. She did so and asked God to ‘open my blood vessels’. This time I didn’t go out in the Spirit, and I didn’t feel any healing energy around me, in fact my heart continued to ache for another three days. I thought , ‘Oh Lord you didn’t do it for me this time’.

During the week Judy, teacher of dance, said to me ‘there is something different about you, you are looking at the children and taking your eyes off the music’. Then when I went into church people said to me, that I look so well, that there was something different about me, so I said I have just started a new diet, it must be working.In the middle of the meeting, we experienced what we call a ‘holy hush,’ when everyone just sits still, bathed in the Lord’s love, even the atmosphere changes, it almost feels like the Holy Spirit is covering us, it is something you cannot put into words, but it is awesome. During this hush, I heard clearly the words, “It was I who opened your blood vessels”. I realised two things.  God had spoken to me, because a) I didn’t know that my blood vessels were shut in my head, but they were because Judy had noticed that I wasn’t needing to keep my eyes glued to the music as I had been doing. I also knew that the Cafergot Q was instrumental in doing this. However it still took a few months before I risked getting the necessary checks done to say that I was cured of angina, and they all came back positive, and I have never had another attack of angina ’til this day. I checked out the ingredients of Cafergot Q, and found that they are both caffeine and ergotamine, and of course ergotamine is given to women who have had a baby, to stop her haemorrhaging because it narrows the blood vessels.

By the way Cliff and I are still married, I cannot imagine life without Him. He is my best friend as well as my husband. We celebrated our 41st wedding anniversary last year. I am so grateful that I didn’t divorce him, I can’t believe the enormous change in both of our lives. He gave his life to the Lord in 2005, another incredible story of the Lord’s goodness to Cliff and myself.

We have gone through much trial and tribulation, but are learning through it all that God is always there for us, that He puts us through these tests for both purification purposes and to enable us to go deeper into Him and the things of Him. No, we aren’t Throne Room Christians, like Sister Laity Thomas. But we have gone through the Gate (Jesus) and we are on the Path that leads to Life, and the more we surrender our life to Him, the more we Trust and Obey Him the closer we get.There is only one place to be, and that is in The Secret Place of the Most High, because there you are under the shadow of His Wings, and under His Protection. I long to be there, because there you receive the anointing so when you lay hands on people they will be helped. I long to see His Face and all of His beauty, to see His Grace and all of His Glory, that is my cry Oh Lord, my hearts desire Oh God, to see Your Face and know Your Grace, that is my cry.

Start of God’s Plan – Abraham

If this is the first time you have come to this website, after asking the question ‘Why am I here, than please scroll down to the first of my blog posts on this subject, as it won’t make sense if you take the posts out of context.  I also want to re-iterate that the Bible is God’s Story or His-story, it certainly gives us an incredible picture of the beginning of civilisation and man’s inhumanity to man. God’s wonderful plan of the Redemption of man is slowly coming into view, but the enemy of our soul is doing everything he can to stop it.

One of the hardest things to realize is, that time doesn’t happen in heaven, it is said one day in heaven is akin to a thousand days here on earth.  God works in ‘types, patterns and shadows’.  Even the language of the Bible has its own ‘types patterns and shadows’ and when that is disturbed in modern translations, the types patterns and shadows are destroyed.

The last blog post was about Noah’s mistake and the consequences of that and how Canaan’s descendants tried to turn the ‘curse’ around by building a very powerful kingdom and then the Tower of Babel.  One wonders if they were trying to make sure that if another flood came they would still survive.  However God confused the languages, said man was getting too clever, and by confusing the language it would hold man back.  At the same time the continents were divided.

After the flood men didn’t live as long as they did before the flood, it seems as if it didn’t take long before the allotted years for man, was reduced from 900+ to 70 + years.  God picked out one man called Abram and his wife Sarai for the start of His plan for the redemption of mankind. Abram’s grandfather’s name was Eber, and they were called Hebrews and their language was Hebrew.

God spoke to Abram and told him to leave his father Terah and family  in Haran, somewhere in old Mesopotamia, probably Northern Iraq today, to go to Canaan, Modern Israel today, where he was to dwell with his wife Sarai.  Not their names, it was only after they had proved their faithfulness to God that God breathed on them and put the ‘ah’ in Abrahams name – called the breath of God, and even Sarai was changed to Sarah.

Now the Lord had said unto Abram, Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, and from thy father’s house, unto a land that I will shew thee: 2 and I will make of thee a great nation, and I will bless thee, and make thy name great; and thou shalt be a blessing: 3 and I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed. Genesis 12 v 1-3

By the way Terah had originally lived in Ur of the Chaldees, before moving to Haran.

Abram walked with God, and had a real experience of His Manifested Presence.
God gave him incredible promises, one being that his descendants would be as numerous as the stars in heaven, in other words the number couldn’t be counted.  This was before Abram had a child, and Sarai was already too old, and no longer able to have children.

4 And, behold, the word of the Lord came unto him, saying, This shall not be thine heir; (Abram’s heir at that time was Eliezer of Damascus, the steward in his house,) but he that shall come forth out of thine own bowels shall be thine heir. 5 And he brought him forth abroad, and said, Look now toward heaven, and tell the stars, if thou be able to number them: and he said unto him, So shall thy seed be.
6 And he believed in the Lord; and he counted it to him for righteousness.
7 And he said unto him, I am the Lord that brought thee out of Ur of the Chaldees, to give thee this land to inherit it.
8 And he said, Lord God, whereby shall I know that I shall inherit it?
9 And he said unto him, Take me an heifer of three years old, and a she goat of three years old, and a ram of three years old, and a turtledove, and a young pigeon. 10 And he took unto him all these, and divided them in the midst, and laid each piece one against another: but the birds divided he not. 11 And when the fowls came down upon the carcases, Abram drove them away.
12 And when the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram; and, lo, an horror of great darkness fell upon him. 13 And he said unto Abram, Know of a surety that thy seed shall be a stranger in a land that is not theirs, and shall serve them; and they shall afflict them four hundred years; 14 and also that nation, whom they shall serve, will I judge: and afterward shall they come out with great substance. 15 And thou shalt go to thy fathers in peace; thou shalt be buried in a good old age. 16 But in the fourth generation they shall come hither again: for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet full.
17 And it came to pass, that, when the sun went down, and it was dark, behold a smoking furnace, and a burning lamp that passed between those pieces. 18 In the same day the Lord made a covenant with Abram, saying, Unto thy seed have I given this land, from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates: Genesis 15 v 4 17

This Promise and Covenant was the start of God’s amazing plan for our redemption. It is truly an amazing story of how God kept the promise about Abrams descendants living in Egypt for a period of 400 years.  How the Lord brought them out in an extraordinary way is another step in the ‘Great Plan’, but note how long it took to get to the next stage.

However as the years went on and there was no sight of the forthcoming child, Sarai couldn’t wait any longer and told Abram to sleep with his maid Hagar (an Egyptian slave) and have a child with her and he did so.

But once Abram did sleep with Hagar, Sarai was jealous and told Abram to get rid of her.  He told she could do as she pleased and so Hagar found she had to flee from Sarai.  An Angel found her sheltering by a fountain of water, and asked what she was doing.  After Hagar told him, the Angel told her to go back and to submit to Sarai, and “Behold, thou art with child, and shalt bear a son, and shalt call his name Ishmael; because the Lord hath heard thy affliction. 12 And he will be a wild man; his hand will be against every man, and every man’s hand against him; and he shall dwell in the presence of all his brethren.” Genesis 16 v 11b – 13.

Again a wrong choice that has resulted in a great deal of trouble between the children of the slave woman and the child of the married woman. Four thousand years later the trouble is still raging between ishamel and Isaac.  There is a picture here that we should take note of.  That when God gives a promise, not to try and make the promise come true before the allotted time, Abram had to wait 25 years, before Isaac was born.

When Abram was 99 years of age God came and told him that Sarai would bear him a son the following year, and he was to call his name Isaac which means ‘laughter – because Sarai laughed with unbelief when she hear she was finally going to have a son).

He told Abram that he would be the Father of many nations and it was now that God changed Abram’s name to Abraham, and promises the land of Canaan to be an everlasting covenant to Abraham’s descendants. To mark this covenant Abraham was to be circumcised as a token of the Covenant between God and Abraham, he and his descendants, who were to be circumcised on the 8th day after their birth, and also all the males in his household.

The next year Isaac was born and Ismael was by this time 15 years, and again there was great jealousy between Hagar and Sarah, and Sarah insisted that Hagar and Ismael be sent away as Ismael was not going to be an heir of Abrahams, that was for Isaac alone. So Ismael left Abrahams house and lived in Paran, for God was with him, and protected him, and made him great, and fulfilled His promise to Ismael. If you want to watch a you-tube video on Abraham than click here.

This concludes the first part of the Abraham story, it is too long and too fundamental to cut it any shorter.  But my next blog post I will conclude it.  You see 4000 years on we are still being affected by this incredible story.  God’s plan was to choose a man and his descendants to give the world three things.  The Bible, the Ten Commandments, and the Royal Line for His Redeemer, Son of God and Son of Man to come to this earth and make a way for man to come back to having a right relationship with Father God.

What Happened After the Flood?

If this is the first time you have come to this website, after asking the question ‘Why am I here, than please scroll down to the first of my blog posts on this subject, as it won’t make sense if you take the posts out of context.  I also want to re-iterate that the Bible is God’s Story or His-story, it certainly gives us an incredible picture of the beginning of civilisation and man’s inhumanity to man. God’s wonderful plan of the Redemption of man is slowly coming into view, but the enemy of our soul is doing everything he can to stop it.

After the flood God told Noah to go forth and repopulate the earth. That is quite a statement.  He was told also told that the ‘fear of man shall be on every beast’, and that he could now go and eat flesh or meat for food.  Until the flood man was a herbivore, now he became a carnivore.

Remember God gave Noah a wonderful promise “8 And God spake unto Noah, and to his sons with him, saying, . . . 11 And I will establish my covenant with you; neither shall all flesh be cut off any more by the waters of a flood; neither shall there any more be a flood to destroy the earth.
12 And God said, This is the token of the covenant which I make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: 13 I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth. 14 And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud: 15 and I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh. 16 And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth. “ Genesis 10 v 8 – 16.

This is such an incredible promise, especially when you know that God’s throne is surrounded by a rainbow like an emerald.  This description is given in Revelation 4 v 3.  When my Mum died, she hadn’t made a commitment to Jesus, and I’ll never know why I did this, but the night before she died I laid hands on her and asked Jesus to come and show her the way.  When I registered her death it was a dreadful day, dark clouds and blustery wind and rain.  There was just one window in the Registery Office where you could see out, all the others had blinds pulled down, but in that window there was a rainbow.  Great peace filled my heart, I had been devastated that my Mum couldn’t make that commitment, but when I saw that Rainbow, it was if God was giving me a personal promise that she was fine.  Rainbows give me great joy, and I love to see them.

Sadly even Noah, who had been accounted righteous, enough to have been chosen to restart the human race, made a sad mistake.  He became a farmer, or husbandman, and grew grapes.  One night he had too much wine to drink and fell into a drunken sleep, naked, in his tent.  His youngest son Ham went in and saw his father and we are told came out and laughed and ‘told’ his brothers.  The word ‘told’ in Hebrew means ‘told with delight’, so probably he was crowing about seeing his father in this state.

This is the first time that wine is mentioned in the Bible, and although we aren’t told that it is a sin to drink, we are told that we mustn’t over imbibe, that we must be sober and vigilant because your adversary, the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour” (1 Peter 5:8). If you get drunk and pass out, I understand that is when you can become possessed by demonic spirits.  Sadly the sin seed was reintroduced back into this world again.

The elder brothers Shem and Japheth immediately walked into Noah’s tent backwards, carrying a coat or some sort of covering on their shoulders to drop on to him and cover his nakedness.   “And Noah awoke from his wine, and knew what his younger son had done unto him. And he said, Cursed be Canaan; a servant of servants shall he be unto his brethren. And he said, Blessed be the LORD God of Shem; and Canaan shall be his servant. God shall enlarge Japheth, and he shall dwell in the tents of Shem; and Canaan shall be his servant” (Genesis 9:24-27).

Note that God shall enlarge Japheth, he was the father of the European nations and this shows that the European nations would be the largest and the most dominant of all nations.  Shem was the father of the Semitic nations (Jews, Arabs, Syrians, Assyrians, Babylonians and Persians) and note that Noah said “Blessed be the LORD God of Shem – which denotes that God’s Redeemer and the Bible would come from Shem’s descendants.  But Ham’s descendants were Sumerians, Egyptians, Ethiopians, Hittites, and some of the Asiatic nations. They would never become dominant races amongst the nations of the world. The curse would stand.

I could never understand why Canaan (Ham’s youngest son) was cursed seeing that it was Ham who did the deed.  But maybe Noah was prophesying, because Canaan was the ‘promised land’ that Shem’s descendants were to inhabit.  That promise stands today, and the descendants of Ham are still fighting over it.

Cush was the eldest son of Ham, his name means ‘let us rebel’. He was threatened by the curse of being Shem and Japheth’s servant so he sought to establish his own kingdom through his own son Nimrod.

Nimrod was endued with great strength and was a ‘mighty hunter’  and in wickedness before the Lord..  His kingdom was Babel, and Erech, Accad , Calneh in the land of Shinar which is Modern Day Iraq, ancient Babylon.  He was the founder of the very empire that would try to destroy Israel, its Temple and send its people into exile.

The spirit of Rebellion is clearly seen in Noahs’ great-grandson.  Maybe he was trying to reverse Noah’s curse, by trying to establish a mighty, powerful  kingdom.  He established the kingdom of Babylon, and Babylon is for ever mentioned in the Bible as against the Plans and Purposes of God.

Everything in Babylon was against God and all He represented.  In Revelation, the last book of the Bible, God’s children are told to ‘come out of mystery Babylon, which means simply that all the traditions that have come down through the ages from Babylon and the pagan religion that was instituted there, we must turn our back on and have nothing to do with it. If you want to see a you-tube video on The Tower of Babel speaking of the origin of languages than click here.

It continued until the Tower of Babel was built, and God had to act again.  Up until this time only one language was spoken on earth, and it is thought that the language was Hebrew.  There is definitely something very special about the language of Hebrew, if you want to watch a video where Hebrew is shown scientifically to have special powers than click here.  The video is in three parts, the middle part shows how a machine reacts when Hebrew is spoken, it is the only language on earth that does this. To see it clearly click on the full screen button at the extreme right of the progress bar.

But when God saw that man was building the Tower of Babel, trying to reach heaven, perhaps the original ‘Stairway to Paradise,’  He came down and muddled the languages so one nation couldn’t understand what another was saying. He noted a powerful force within their unity of purpose, and by confusing the languages God thwarted their plans.  Not only that but He also scattered the people all over the earth.

Shem’s great-grandson Eber had two son’s Peleg (name means divide by water) and Joktan.  This is mentioned twice in the Bible:-

“And unto Eber were born two sons: the name of one [was] Peleg; for in his days was the earth divided; and his brother’s name [was] Joktan.”
(Genesis 10:25 KJV)
“And unto Eber were born two sons: the name of the one [was] Peleg; because in his days the earth was divided: and his brother’s name [was] Joktan.”
(1 Chronicles 1:19 KJV)
Also according to the genealogy in Genesis 11:10 – 17 it says that Peleg was born 101 years after the flood.  Anything mentioned twice in the Bible means we are to take special notice of it, and so his name and when he was born is also very significant.

Could it be that the continent break up took place in this time.  Noah’s ark landed on Mount Ararat, Turkey, and yet how did people get to the far flung corners of the earth.  If the continental plates only started to break apart 101 years after the flood, it isn’t impossible for people to migrate there on dry land at about 50+ miles a year, for them to reach and cross the land bridge to North America, and again to reach Australia. But this is purely hypothesis, especially remembering that maybe the Ice Age followed directly after the flood.

This concludes my blog-post on ‘what happened after the flood.’  Next blog-post I will discuss the next great promise of God and the Covenant He made with Abraham.  From the name of Eber, we get Hebrew, and Eber is Abrahams grand-father, the Patriarch of the Chosen People, from where the Bible, Ten Commandments and the Redeemer of Mankind came.

What Happened Next?

Adam and Eve after the Fall

Adam and Eve after the Fall

If you have asked the question ‘why am I here‘, and have just come to the blog, this is the fourth post. It would be better for you to scroll down to the beginning, and take the posts in sequence and not out of context.

When Adam and Eve made the choice to disobey God, there was an immediate consequence. They realized they were naked.I understand that they were clothed in God’s glory – a sort of light emanating from them – and that is why they didn’t realize that they were naked until they disobeyed and lost the glory and innocence that they had. They then realized the enormity of what they had done and hid from God. Already the separation had taken place.

But God had a plan, that plan was always there, right before He even created the world and man. That plan was called ‘the Word’. In the beginning was ‘the Word’, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God . . . and the Word was made flesh and came and dwelt amongst us full of Grace and Truth. John 1 v 1, 14.

When God spoke to the serpent He told Him that ‘I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed; it shall bruise thy head, and thou shalt bruise his heel.’ Genesis 3 v 15. This is the first mention of the Redeemer of the World that God was going to send to redeem mankind from the enemy. Yes, just that one act of disobedience meant that satan was now the ruler over us, and we had to be bought back (redeemed) out of his control.

So mankind has been on the long journey to find his way back to God and to the Kingdom of Heaven. If you read the Bible’s account of man, it isn’t long before sin was so bad that God decided to destroy His creation of earth with a huge flood. When Adam and Eve left the Garden of Eden they had two sons, Cain and Abel, and Cain became jealous of Abel because he thought God favored Abel, and not him. But God had given them instructions of how to sacrifice to Him, and Cain chose again to ignore it. Cain murdered Abel, so that tells me it is in each one of us to do evil. Things deteriorated when angels of the fallen variety came and had sex with the women on the earth and giants and demonic beings called the Nephilim were born to man. God saw all this and was so angry he decided to destroy the earth with a huge flood.

God Tells Noah to Fill the Ark

God Tells Noah to Fill the Ark

He decided to save eight people, Noah and wife, three sons Shem, Ham and Japheth and their wives. God gave Noah specific instructions on how to build a huge boat called an ark, and how to save two species of all animals, domestic and wild, and to have enough food for them all. The amazing part of this story is that the measurements God gave Noah for building the ark, and how to make it watertight by using pitch, those measurements still stand today for building ships it’s to do with the proportion between height, width and depth of the ark.

Everyone jeered at Noah, because they hadn’t seen the sea, and had no conception of what sailing on water was all about. I have heard that before the flood there was a vapor shield that covered the entire earth, and it was that that broke up causing it to rain 150 days. This theory, and I stress it is only theory made sense to me, because before the flood people could live until 900+ years, but immediately after the flood peoples lives were dramatically shortened, until our natural lifespan is 70+ years. I wondered if this was because of the water vapor protecting planet earth from the suns rays. Allowing enough sunshine in for good health but not too much to harm our bodies.

In the Bible it says before the flood no rain fell, waters came up from the earth to water the ground, and if there had been the water vapor shield around the earth this would mean that the water coming up from the earth would have been enough to water all the vegetation and trees etc. In Norfolk, UK, where I live we get very little water, on a par with Athens, but we are constantly shielded with clouds, and so we do manage to keep our gardens watered and crops irrigated, even though it has been forecast that our region could be a desert within 30 years or so. We moan about the weather and the many grey days, longing for sunshine, but if we had our own way we would be a desert, and no longer a ‘green and pleasant land.’

So Noah made the ark, and brought all the animals in, they actually went in 7 days before the flood started and God locked them in, so no-one else could get in.

After it all happened, when Noah’s ark landed on Mount Ararat, God made a promise that He would never flood the entire world again with water, and the rainbow is the token sign of His promise. Below are two videos two videos about Noah’s Ark landing on Mount Ararat and the second one is about discovering Noah’s Ark on Mt Ararat.

Nothing has really changed, man is still busy doing his own thing, preferring to walk his way and not God’s way. I was the same, it took a very unhappy situation in my life, a kind of mid-life crisis, where bouts of deep depression came over me and I was afraid of taking my own life when under these bouts. I had no desire to take my life, but was afraid of doing it when I guess the balance of my mind was disturbed. God made a way for me, and I am so deeply grateful for that way, He took me by the hand and led me step by step through that dark valley until eventually I realized I had come out of it.The problem was no more!!

That completes the blog post, next one we will talk about how God started to put His plan into action and how man deals with it.

Choices and  Consequences

The creation of Adam by Michelangelo

The creation of Adam by Michelangelo

If this is the first time you have come to this website after asking the question ‘why am I here,’ please scroll down to the first blog post, because this is the third blog post, and really you need to start at the beginning. If you don’t read it in context it won’t make sense.

The Bible has a wonderful explanation about the creation of the universe, and of course man. The first five books of the Bible was given to Moses, by God Himself on Mount Sinai when God was giving Moses the Ten Commandments. So Genesis is God’s story of how He created the Universe and man. Who is man to not agree with the Almighty God.

Below is a video on the Biblical explanation of Creation, remembering that it is man’s interpretation of the Scriptures.

After God had finished creating the earth, He then said He would create man in His own image to have dominion or rule over all things on this earth. What an incredible statement that is. Unlike evolution that tells us we are descended from the apes. God tells us He created us in His own image, but He is a Spirit and we are flesh.

That tells me that our spirit is like His Spirit, or was when He first created us. But something happened, and man lost the Spiritual togetherness with God. My understanding was simply that God created us with freedom of choice. Without freedom of choice we would have been robots, unable to truly love. God created us to have a relationship with Him. Adam walked with God in the evening, in the Garden, before he made the wrong choice. To have freedom of choice, there had to be something to choose. God wants us to make the right choices.

Remember in the second blog post I spoke of how Lucifer became so proud and wanted to be above God, and so rebellion started in Heaven, and a third of the angels followed him. Therefore it stands to reason that God wants us to learn to make the right choices, to love Him and put Him first and be obedient to all He says. Rebellion is, according to the Bible, akin to witchcraft.

In the Garden of Eden were two trees. Adam was forbidden to eat from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, for if he did he would surely die. He was told that he could dress or keep the garden. At this stage gardening wasn’t the arduous job it is now, because there were no weeds. He was told he could eat of the herbs of the garden and the fruit of every tree other than the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil.

The enemy or adversary of our souls, satan, as Lucifer is now known, came to Eve and tempted her to eat of the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. He whispered in her ear ‘you shall not die. For God does know that the day you eat, then shall your eyes be opened and you shall be as gods knowing good and evil.’ Gen 2 v 3-5. He always sows doubts in ones mind. Eve saw that the fruit was pleasant to look at and eat, and would make her wise. How we long to be wise, it says in Proverbs that ‘the fear (or awe) of the Lord is the start of wisdom.’ Prov 1v 7

The result of this sad choice or disobedience was that Adam and Eve lost their innocence, they suddenly perceived that they were naked and immediately they sewed fig leaves together to make an apron to cover their nakedness. They became conscious of the flesh and the need to dress, immediately after they had lost their spirituality.

They then hid from God when He came to walk with them in the evening. They had died spiritually, the connection with them and God had been broken. To prevent them from eating of the second Tree in the Garden, the Tree of Life, God cast them out of the Garden and guarded the entrance with two Cherubims, large Angels, with Flaming Swords.

Below is a video describing Adam and Eve and the fall.

Why? I have often asked myself this question. But as I have grown older I have noticed that the more knowledge one has, the more sophisticated we become, the harder it is to trust totally in God. Our minds get in between, and say no, that is impossible. We forget who God is, that He is the God of the impossible as well as the possible and that nothing is impossible for Him.

It is true to say that until we come to God, and commit our lives to Him, and accept His path for us, we are still dead spiritually, we are only firing on two cylinders instead of three, we are no longer complete and it is that desire to be complete which urges us to seek and make our way back to God again. There is within each of us a center where God wants to dwell, our heart. When we regain our spirituality, our hearts become a ‘temple for the Holy Ghost, God’s Spirit, to dwell.

If Adam had eaten of the Tree of Life at this point mankind would have had no hope. We would continue in a downward spiral for ever. That is a dreadful thought. Remember that the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil had one root, it is the same tree.

However God has given us another chance. He has made a Way, but we must do things His way. I am not talking about being religious. That isn’t the way. Religion is simply man trying to work his ticket to heaven by good works. Good works are important, but won’t take us to heaven. God has a different route for us, and its by Grace. Not our efforts, lest we should boast in heaven, and how we love to blow our own trumpet when we have done something good.

I must complete this post now, it is already too long, but it is difficult to shorten it at this stage. Next blog post I will describe the consequences of the Fall of man, and the steps that God has taken to bring mankind back into a relationship with Him.

Does God Exist? Is There Such a Place as Heaven?

The Last Judgement by Michelangelo

The Last Judgement by Michelangelo

If this is the first time you have visited this website, and you are asking the question ‘why am I here?’ then please scroll right down to the  blog post which is titled Why am I Here. It is important that you do this because each post is dependent on whether you have read the first one, and then the next in order.If you read my previous blog post, the question was asked ‘why am I here?’. But before you can answer that question you need to ask does God exist? I am hoping that even if I didn’t convince you that God exists, that at least I have given you food for thought. These questions are incredibly profound, and aren’t easily answered.

One thing I do know, is that you are searching for Him, even if you don’t know it. Just asking that question tells me you are wanting something more from life than the daily grind. Probably you also want to know where you are going. That is also a very profound question, but if you don’t believe God exists it doesn’t matter.Again if we are only here by accident, and there is no future for us, we have no real value, only what others think of us, and they aren’t eternal, well it stands to reason we aren’t going anywhere.

But if God does exist, than everything changes. If God exists than He must have a plan and purpose for each one of us. If God exists can we get to know HIm. If He is the Creator of the world and the Universe, He must be awesome, so how can frail man possibly know Him and obey Him.

It is said that our lives here on planet earth is in parenthesis, in other words this life is just a temporary dwelling place, our own bodies are just temporary, and that our real life begins after death. That should make us wonder if we are living our life the way that will benefit us when we die.

People often talk about going to heaven, they write sympathy cards for people who have died saying they are ‘in heaven with the angels’. I think there is a deep longing in each one of us to know that death isn’t the end, but in fact the beginning of a more wonderful life than we can ever dream or think of, but if we can’t know and obey God whilst here on earth, will we be able to even go to heaven.

What do I mean by Heaven, is it a place? Or is it another dimension. I can’t really answer that question factually, I don’t believe it is a place like another planet – I know some people think it is. I believe Heaven is where God is, and He is all around us.

I have just read that Nasa using the Hubble Telescope in 1994 photographed what they thought to be Heaven, a city fully lit up sitting in space. I then tried to research this and typed into Google ‘Hubble Photographs Heaven’ and the original article was there, it is from Weekly World News. I have no way of authenticating this but it did lead me to Nasa’s site and the photographs there were utterly amazing, astounding and wonderful. What a Mighty God we serve.

The Bible gives us some incredible descriptions of God in His Throne Room. The Bible is the one really tangible object of God that we have. It is a love letter to us from God, a manual on how to live life as He wants us to live.

I understand that when we get to Heaven, there will be no more grief, fear, tears or pain of any description, and that is good enough for me.

His Throne Room however is where everything happens, where He gives His plans to the Angels.

Angel Statue by Michelangelo

Angel Statue by Michelangelo

What do I mean by Angels, they are God’s messengers. God in Ancient Hebrew is called El, and Elohim (which means God plural). Do note the el in the word Angel, it is also in the Archangel Michael’s name and the Archangel Gabriel’s name, but interestingly not in Lucifer’s name. God knew the end from the beginning, He is Almighty, Omniscient (All knowing) Omnipresent (Everywhere) and Omnipotent (Sovereign over all), and of course Eternal. He never changes, He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Below this paragraph is a video of how two people were saved out of a terrific accident by angels than pulling people out of a car accident. I included this video because it reminded me of my son’s car accident in 1988, when he was trapped in a car on fire, and there just happened to be a man walking along the road ( a main road from Norwich to London, a desolate spot with no houses nearby) at 6.50am on a Sunday morning, with a bucket of water and he put out the flames. I have never seen anyone walking along that road ever, and I have driven many times along it.

God knew that rebellion would start in Heaven. That is a shocking statement, but Lucifer was an angel of Light, an anointed cherub, a perfection of wisdom and beauty and was the Chief Musician and Worship Leader, but wanted to be God, wanted to sit on His Throne, wanted God’s Glory and Praise for himself. He led a third of all angels astray. When they sided with him, they were also cast out of heaven and dwell with him now in a place called Hades. It is his darkness and awfulness that afflicts this poor world today.

He is very subtle, he comes as an angel of light, he causes us to doubt, he says, ‘did God really say that? He makes us doubt who we are in God. His followers, or ex angels, are the demons that come and torment us. Hades or Hell is a place of the damned, a dreadful place, a fearful place and I certainly don’t want to go there. It is a place of separation from God, so when people say that life is hell on earth, what they are really saying they are separate from God.

He was given dominion over this earth by man, Adam. I will write about the Fall of Man and the subsequent consequences in my next blog post. But for now just know that he is doing everything he can to get man to not believe in God and obey God, he is doing his best to send everyone to hell and to make life on this earth as difficult as it possibly can be for all who are not his.